I don't even recognize myself this semester. Yes, I look the same. For now. I talk the same. I dress the same. Mostly. But I am not the same. What's the difference?
Right now I feel more motivated than I think I ever have. I feel motivated to do well in my classes, despite the fact that they involve reading a grand total of 55 novels and 30 picture books in the next 10 weeks, not to mention the crazy workload from my other classes. I feel motivated to have friends. For the first time in my life, I refuse to sit in my room watching a movie on Friday night, just feeling sorry for myself for not having a life. I feel motivated to know my ward. I want to actually be involved. I no longer want my ward to just be where I go to church on Sunday. I feel motivated to BE HAPPY! I have a good life! Why have I wasted so much time longing for things that I can't have? And last, but not least, I feel motivated to GET HEALTHY. Remember that thing that I'm doing in February? That half-marathony thing in DISNEY WORLD??? Well... thanks to the encouraging (and very firm) words of my amazing sister Tiffany, I've started training. It's slow and I have a long way to go, but it's going. Quite well... In fact, heres a shocker. I'm actually enjoying it. A lot. A lot a lot. Not, only that, but I'm changing my eating habits as well. Going low-carb hasn't even been that hard. I still eat delicious food, just different food. I don't go hungry. But, here's the kicker. Two words:
In a week and a half. Now, I know that pace probably won't last for long. But still. That is eight pounds that are gone forever (because I am going to force them to be gone forever). I am going to change. And I am going to try as hard as I can to never go back.